Nosai ani Pisai (Jealousy & Craziness)

Nosai  ani  Pisai (Jealousy & Craziness)

                                                                             * Necio D’Souza, Raia - Goa

Nosai (jealousy) korop sonvsarache survatek thavn asa. Ani sodankal asteli. Tech bhaxen pisai (foolishness) asa ani sodankal asteli. Nosai ani pisai hanchem natem chodd lagimchem karann nosai korop mhollearuch pisai ballgop. Udaronn dilea bhogor nosai kitem tem somzop avgodd. Nosaiechim khub udaronnam asat. Ut’tom udaronn asa tem Bible-ache survatek. Jedna Cain-ak, aplo khaxa bhav Abel-achi nosai zata. Abelachem dhan Apnnak chodd manovlem oxem Devan kolloitoch Cain-ak tiddok yeta. Uprant guptim to Abel-ak jivexim marta. Dev magir nixttur sojea koxi Cain-ak vollvolleanchem jivit farik korta. Atam polle il’lexea nimitak lagon ek bhav nosaien bhorta ani khuni zaunk pavta.

Halinch korezmachea disanim Rai-Arlem vattarant 28 vorsamchea Agnelan soreache noxent torr zavn Juzek jivexim marlo. He dogui khaxa rogtache bhav, ghorache vantte korche pasot kizilam kortale. Hanga ekttean tori Bible-achi somjikai ghetleli zalear; kitlem borem zata aslem. Mhojea-i jivitant osloch kavz ghoddpacho hanvem vattaila. Eka kallar mhozo bapuy soreacho gulam aslo. Dis-rat mhozo suseg pirddear kortalo. Mhojeach koxttanchem purian jevunk mhaka suseg mellonaslo. Taka ghatki xezareancho pattimbo aslo, tem magir somzolem. Hanv ekloch put tori sodanch kestanvam. Jiben suru zatalim tim magir dandde-fator marun subeiz zatalim. Taka vaitt jivit jiyeunk hanv addaitalom, hich taka nosai asli. To sudorpachi vatt koxich dhorina, tea khatir hanvem ghor soddpacho nichev kelo. Poisul’lea ganvant bhaddeachea ghorant ravlom. Xekim vaitt jivit sarun bapuy somplo, tednach hanv ghorant ravunk ailo. Aiz hanv xant ani sukhi jivit mhojea kuttumba sangatan jiyetam. Zor oslich somjikai dor ekean dakhoilear, somazant kitlem boreponn mellchem na !!!!

Aple sukhi vatter dusro monis kantto koso disonk lagta, he pisayek jedna nosayecho sangat melltta, tednach bhirankull kavz ghoddtta. Dusreachem padd korun aplem sadovop mhonnge pisai ballgop. Apunn boro dusro vaitt, hem mon samkem chukichem. Durdoivan atanchea kallar hench chintop chodd vosta. Jihadi, Nakxalvadi, Mav’vadi, adi songttonachem mull nosayent asa. Aplo jiv samballop ani herancho jiv ogddavop, oxem tanchem dhoronn. Hea sonvsarant jiyeupak osleach monxank hok’k asa, oxem te mantat. Kedi vhodd pisai hi. Dekhun mhontt’tam je meren nosai jivi asteli to meren pisai bi jivi urteli.

Nosaiek lagon vhodd ani navlovkik ghorabe kosllon geleat. Razanchim vorixtt somrajyam pasun churo zaleant. Tuji chuk nastana purian tujer nosayeche fator marpi lok somazant asat. Tum vhoir sorta, girest zata, nanv melloita zalear kurnnattea monxam lagim hem polleunk zaina. Tuka sokla uddovpak tim bhorpur vell pirdear kortat. Apnnacher Deva koddlem maldisanv denvta hachi porva tankam asona. Dusreank chimtte itlem purian dukh dinastana tum voir sorta zalear pasun, kaim zann tujer nosayeche fator xevttitat. Punn toslea monxamcher tuvem lokx diunk zaina. Portench zalear tannim marlelea fatramnim tuvem ek mozbut ghor bandpacho proytn korunk zai. Soglleanch lagim oxem ghoddtta mhonn na. Devacher visvas dovrun tuzo atm’visvas (self-confidence) mozbut korpak zai. Oxem korpak hanv tori yesesvi zala, hacho mhaka obhiman bhogta.

Borovpacho chhond mhaka lhanponna savn aslo. Hanvem poilich kovita boroili ti Morattintlean, tivui zalear 9 vorsanche pirayer. Punn poili xapun aili ti Romi konknnitli kovita. Tea uprant lekh, kotha ani her dusrem borovop. Kaim spordhanim inamaim melloileant. Punn hanv mar ek lekhok oxem kednach chintunk na. Hanv oso fuddem veta to polleun XX nanvachea borovpeak nosai zali. Tea kallar tacho probhav soglleakuch choltalo. Devnagri lipichea pongddan tor taka sarkoch ukhlun dovorlolo. ‘Sunaparant’ disalleak to chodd chittkun aslo. Tannem mhojexim ek xoddyontr (conspiracy) rochlelem tem somzopak mhaka khub vorsam laglim. Hanvem fattlea vorsanim kitlemxench likhann kocherint dilam, punn ekui xapunk na, oxi tokrar halinch sompadpeaxim keli. Puray chovkoxi kelea uprant somzolem ki ho XX monis apli xokti vaprun mhojim borovpam lhasun uddoitalo. Dekhun hanv Romitlean vivid potram-masikamcher borovpak laglom. Tachea sangnneavelean kaim Romi sompadpeanim purian mhojer on’nyay kela. To mhoje add uloitalo ani vaurtalo tachi hanvem porva kelina. Aiz hea motlobi XX borovpeak Devnagri preminim voximar kela. Tachim sogllim karastana ugtim zal’lean jivitbhor taka devnagrivale lagim dhorchenant hi khatri asa. Atam ho XX, Romichea camp-ant rigla. Pollovchem asa fuddarak koslim nattkam korta to. Aiz ‘Sunaparant’ ani ‘Navprabha’-chim daram mhaka khoimcheai vellar maye-mogacho yevkar ditat.

Hem sangpacho mhozo hetu itloch ki aiz hanv tea borovpea von fuddem asa. Hanv soglleam poros mukhar ascho vo famad zanvcho oxi ast kednach ballgunk na. Te drixttin hanvem zoborxim pustokam uzvaddaunk nant, tori Quantity poros Quality divpacho lekhok mhonn mhojem nanv fuddem asa. Romi Konknnintli poili Kotha (short story) ontorraxttrik panvddear pavoipacho man mhaka favo zala. Romint zaite borovpi ailet, gelet ani asat, punn konna lagim ghoddlem na, her bhasantlea sahitya borobor spordhent zoitivont zaunk. Fundacao Orient Portugal hanchea Goa Delegation-a torfen kotha spordha ghoddun haddleli tantun sabar voznadik borovpeanim bhag ghetlolo. English, Portuguese, Marathi ani Konknni [Romi ani Devnagri], hea bhasantlea kothank ekech tagdden zokhpachi sort ti. Soglle mellun 101 kotha, hantunlean 3 dorjedar kotha vinchop bhov avgodd kam. Hantun mhaka inam favo zalem ti ek itihasik gozal. Tea bhair hi kotha inglezin bhaxantor zavn, her venchik kotha vagdda pustok rupan Broadway Publishers-a khal prokaxit zalea. Aiz sonvsar bhor tacheo proti pavleat. Hem ek Romichem kherit zoyt oxem zannkar mantat.

He ghoddnnetlean tumkam thavem zaunk favo tea XX borovpeachi nosai. Zor oxem mhaka ghoddlam zalear anikui zannak oslem ghoddlam asunk zai. Na zalear fuddarak ghoddonk xokta. Atam meren osle pulitekeche bolli poddlele teg monis mhoje nodrek aileat. Osli pisai ghevn jiyeteleanchi naddbudh kedna tori ugddapi zatach. Tujem mon nitoll aslear ani hetu nivoll aslear tujem zoyt zatach. Nosai kortelea lagim vad ghalche poros, ani vell hogddavche poros, boro vavr korit ravop chodd faideachem. Tachi zoddtti tannech diumchi asa.

Xekim, konn nosai posraita ani konn nosai sonsta hanche modlo forok Povitr Pustok sangta:

“Devachim bhurgim ani devcharachim bhurgim hacheruch vollkhunk yetat: jim konn Devache khuxe pormonnem jiyenant vo aplea bhavam-bhoinnicho mog korinant, tim Devachim nhoi…….” – [1 Juanv 3:7-10]

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This article is published On Konkani Monthly JIVIT, issue May'2014