Hanv lekhok kay ‘Activist’? (Am I a writer or Activist?)

Hanv lekhok kay ‘Activist’? (Am I a writer or Activist?)

                                                                                   *  Necio D’Souza, Rai -Goy

Hanv ek borovpi oxi mhoji vollokh khub zannak asa. Mhojea likhanna sondorban kaim protikriya uktaytat, tache vorvim somzota. Tori astanana hanv svota borovpi koso manun ghevpak avghodd lagta. Toxi hanvem kitleaxeach xetranim mhoji kopxi dakhoilea. Mhaka omkeach xetracho mhonn dhorop nitt na. Devacho ek visvaxi xevok oso lokanim mhaka polleuncho, hoch mhozo anvddo. Durdoivan oxem ghoddona. Portench zalear hanv Devacho dusman oso bil’lo kaim zannanim mhaka laila. Punn hea bil’lea khatir hanv dukhi zaina. Kiteak Dev mhojem kalliz vollkhota. Amchea dogaim bhitor khoro ani mozbut sombond xugur asa. Hanv tea bil’leanchi ani thoktteanchi porva kori na. Oslea vatavornnant kedna-i matso ghuspotam, tedna hanv lekhok kay ek Sotyavadi (Activist) ? Oso khub pavtti svotakuch proxn kortam.

Mhojea jivitant poilo zago Devak, zalear dusro zago Maim-bhaxek dila. Hanche virudh konnui monis karya kortolo sampoddlear, hanv rokddoch chabuk oddttam. To magir padri zaum va xrimot veakti zaum. Tachea kortubanchi ninda korpak hanv fattim sorona. Heach khatir hanv Devacho dusman mhonn prochar cholta. Eka padrin tor ukteponnim hanv Protestant zala mhonn sermanv legit sanglolo asa. Aiz tache familichim kaim vangddi Protestant zaleant; tankam to addaunk xoklo na. Aiz meren hanvem mhozo dhorm soddunk na; na mhonn dusrea pontant (sect) bhitor sorunk na. Hanv Katholk dormant vaddlam ani morosor Katholkuch astolo.

Devachim khebaddam korteleachi fatt hanv kosoch soddina. To magir kristi zaum va okristi. Hea adim kaim zannak jahirponnim mafi legit magchi poddlea. Amchea modleank thoddeank dista apnnem kitem-i korunk zata; heranim apnnank vicharpachi sot’tya na. Padrinim Devache sovdagar (Traders) koxe vavrunk zata, nem-kaide moddunk zata. Punn samanya kristanvanim tanchim vankddim kortubam tonddar marpak rezanv na. He babtint dusre vogi ravtat zait, punn hanv vogi ravunk xokona. Kiteak tanche poros dhorm-xastr (Theology) ani totv-xastr (Philosophy) vixoyamchi vevharik zann mhaka subeiz asa. Hem khoimchei vellar hanv provar korunk xokta. Ek ghor-sonvsari dadlo konn porim Dev-mul’leank chittkun ravunk xokta, tem pottovpak zata. 

Atam maim-bhas Konknni vixim. Konknni bhaxek hanvem sodanch man bhagoilea. Konknnitlean borop-vachop-ulovop tor zatach. Nond ghevpa sarko ani nond mellonaslolo bhorpur vavr kela. Mhotvachem mhollear Konknni Rajbhas korpachea andolonant hanvem vantto ghetlolo asa. Martyr Florian Vaz-a sangatan hanvem dukh sonslam. Roste addavpak, sankov foddpak, zaddam add uddovpak kallzidarponn dakhoilam. Aiz konknnit khas korun Romi lipint jem rajkoronn chol’lam tem polleun, hanv koso vogi ravpak xokot? Hangasorui bi mhojer arop zata. Konn mhonnttat hanv Romicho, zalear thoddeank hanv Devnagricho. Khorem mhollear donui lipi titleach apurbayecheo. Omkeach pongddak chittkun ravun sonman-puroskar mellovpachi mhoji itsa bilkul na. Heo gozali mhaka sorgar vochunk modot korit kay na oso dubav asa.

Onit zata thoim ninda korop, hi sonkolpona Jezu Krista-chi. Tachea pattlavdaranim ti apnnavchi oxi khud Jezunuch adnya dilea. Hachi kholay zaka somzona tachem bhongom mhonnpachem. Jezun Aplea jivitant sodanch Farizev ani Saducev [tednacho Padri vorg] hancher ttika kelea. Chukon poddleleo vostu nittayer ghalpak vavurla. Chukloleank vatt dhakounk zaina, zalear hanv koslo Kristanv? Ho niyall dor eklean korcho asa. Sot porgottlear Apnnak khursachem moronn favo zatlem, hem zanna zavunui Jezu on’nyacher nixed marit ravlo. Devachem Utor vortovta ‘Donui vattanim pazleli torsad’-oxem BIBLE kolloita. Hich torsad gheun hanvem kitlea zannak Devachea Rajyak laik zaumxe keleat, to hixeob mhoje lagim asa. Zankam mhojem utor koddu lagta tannim jibechi topasnni korchi goroz asa. Dusreank fuloun ani bhuloun karya korpacho dhey hanv ballginam. Mhojea karyantlean konnak sontos melltta to aplem ginean khorea orthan uzar korta. Konnak mosko marun hanv boro mhonn bhovman korun ghevpachi itsa mhaka bilkul na. Sonsaracho boro zaum vaitt thoktto ghevpacher mhojem sintid na.

Hem karya vo chollvoll fuddem vhorunk borovpachem madheom apnnavop sobavik asa. Tem magir kagdacher boroi vo intternettar boroi, vaitt kaim na. Jezuchea sorg provexa uprant Sant  Paulu poixil’lea ganvanim ani desanim Dev-sondex porgottunk vetalo. Provochonam korit astalo tori chitti bhoroun sondex heram prantanim pavoipak tejixtt aslo. Aiz heo chitti BIBLE-ant toxench Misa-bolidanant mukhel sandho zavn ravleat. Hoch rosto hanvem apnnailear kitem vaitt asa? Atam meren kaim promannan yeox favo zal’lem asa.

Oxem korpak khub zannanim mhaka protsahon dilam. Hea vellar navlovkik Lekhika ani sonxodok (Researcher) Dr.Jayanti Naik-achi yad zata. Mhojea poileach “ATM’VISVAS” Kotha-songrahache prostavnent kitleoxeoch moladik suchovnneo tinnem manddleat. Hanvem teo vevharant haddpacho proyt kela. ‘Necio-n konknnitlem toxench her bhasantlem sahitya vach’chem. Her bhaxentlea sahityant zavpi nove prayog apnnavche. Aplea jivitantle onnbhov meklleponnan aple likhnne vorvim kolatmok rup diun, manddun haddche……”- oxe utforke uktaileat. Borpavollichem sadon bhov xrextt hachi zann mhaka korun divpi zavn asa raxttrik panvddeavele puroskar mellovpi Lekhok Shri Damodar Mauzo. Eka bhovman (Felicitation) dhobajeak hanv gel’le kodden aple famad kadambori “SUNAMI SIMON” vixim gozal sobhemazar sangli. “ Necio, khoreanich Dev koso tum mhaka pavlo. Tujea pustokantlem magnnem justuch mudyek thik koxem boslem. Mhojea patrank koslem magnnem diumchem tench suchonaslem. Tea khatir tujem magnnem aspavn ghetlem……”- umedin to uloilo. DEIVIK MAGNNEM hea mhojea bhaxantor kel’lea pustoka vixim to uloytalo. Itlea onnbhovi ani sonvsarak namna mellovpi lekhokachim utram mhaka ek puroskar koso dislo.

Hech bunyadicher hanv mhakach borovpi koso mandpak laglam. Pirayechea 7 vorsak thaun aiz meren mhojem likhann zalam tem ek oniticher zhuzuch mhonnpachem. Mog, koxtt, kakutt, dhaddxiponn, fottingponn, rag, adi vixoyancher likhann zalam. Punn choddxem ttika korpacheruch zalam. Ti magir constructive zaum vo destructive zaum. Khub zannachim addgam-naddgam voir sorleant. Gupit kamam bhovsak (Public) uktim zaleant. Thoddeank ti ttika koddu vokhot zalam. Thodeanim apnnak nitoll korun ghetleat zalear thodde odhikuch koddu zaleat. Hache fuddem kitem zait tem nokllom. Punn mhojim mull totvam samballun Devachi ani konknnichi seva mat eknixtten korit ravtolom.

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This article was published in the Goa’s Popular Monthly JIVIT, Aug’2014 issue